Is it to settle down?
Or to prepare for the next yell?
The book is published. Flesh & blood of treen kin.
I plugged videos & advertised. Friends & family answered the call.
All in all? $200 in royalties earned since publication.
Purchases have crawled to a near-halt—save the singular paperback purchase today
from an unannounced admirer.
I've spent $123.37 on 34 clicks (out of 12,321 "impressions" or ads appearing to the unconsenting eyes of the scroller-by)
An additional...mmm...several hundred on a book-contest-blitz; submitting to 2? 3
different contests? in hope of accolaides in even-the-slightest. 'T'wil' take 'til the
blooming o' th' annuals to know what may come.
6 paperbacks sit on two shelves: Maria's Bookshop & Absolute Bakery & Café's
'local authors' section.
I've reframed this from passive income into a hobby. You don't expect money back from hobbies, you just do them for the fun of it. In part, I'm protecting myself, another part finding enjoyment in surpassing anything I realistically expected.
SO
What to do? What to do?
'spose I ought ta yell a bit more
at OPEN MICS
on SOCIAL MEADYUH
at AS-OF-YET-INSUFFICIENTLY HARRASED FAMILY, ACQUAINTANCES &
STRANGORS
...yes I s'pose I ought.
Whether I yell again -or- pause, it is at my own behest.
u n f o r t u n a t e l y
I've located some errors in my paperback. Arguably small but nobody likes a mosquito bite, either.
Some times like these, I want for a do-over.
In times such as these, I wonder if it can ever truly end in not just good enough but a fffffFFFFFUUUUUUUuuuuuck k k yeah.
perhaps.
perhaps I shan't know until much later in my career.
at least I know I have done my best many times over through breaks and avoidance with this.
perhaps those small errors will bring a smile to nostalgic, simpler times.
Look:
imadeathing

yes...it is quite pretty. good job, me. you're amazing.
hobby.
fun.
relax.
enjoy the ride.
give a push every once in a while to keep the ride going.

#throwbacktothelastnightofwriting
that completes this evening's dump. thank you for rummaging. carry on.